Things you may not want to know...

I stopped looking for answers outside of myself a long time ago. Not much that I found seemed to fit my situation. Not even the twin soul scenarios I found came close to what I'm experiencing. I do on occasion still look for information on what is happening to me physically. There is little on the internet about the biological changes that occur in physical ascension. I used to think that was because no one knew or even believed that it could actually happen. Now I think it's because anyone considering it as an option would quickly change their minds after reading about the pain and discomfort one might suffer. I am not referring to the painful heartache of being separated from your One true love. I mean the physical pain that comes with infusing a dense human body with divine light. It HURTS!

I thought I had been though the worst of it when my DNA started recoding. Receiving the codes felt like a dozen dentists drilling from the inside of my head into one tooth. It was a good 12 hours of constant drilling pain. And because it was a spiritual pain, nothing could stop it. Best I could do was drink enough cognac to slip into unconsciousness. Even that didn't last but a few minutes at a time. After the DNA came the nerves. Yes, I grew new nerves. These bodies are not equipped with the extra nerves and glands required to remain conscious in the higher dimensions. I was not lucky enough to have been born with my higher dimensional DNA so this is how I acquired it. That all started 3/31/03. Since then Twin & I have worked hard to reach each other on the highest spiritual level. Yes, it has been little painful, but it's been more nauseating than anything else. Kind of like going on a wild ride that has no off switch. Eating was the only thing that helped the nausea. Needless to say...I've put on some pounds.

Saturday morning our consciousness went even higher. I couldn't sleep because I was even more nauseous trying to sleep. The nausea didn't last too long but the entire day I felt like my insides were being replaced. I couldn't eat, but still had to run to the bathroom every few hours. I was able to sleep Saturday night without any problem. When I woke up Sunday around noon, I was in pain. My stomach hurt, my side hurt...I was a mess. That lasted ALL day. Come bedtime, it was worse. I believe that when you sleep you go "Home" so it stands to reason that spiritual changes are more intense while sleeping. I only wish I could have gone to sleep last night. I got up every hour because I couldn't take the pain and discomfort. It started in my stomach and ended up in my chest. I begged God to let me sleep through it. No such luck. Right now I feel like I'm hanging from a meat hook stuck in my chest. Although, the lower half of my body feels much better.

When I say I will do anything to be with my Twin, I mean it.